momentum
i'm nearing the week mark of when i created this blog on a whim. well, i wouldn't say "on a whim" totally. it's more like a friend of mine has been egging me on for months to make one, and me saying, "i'll get around to it," and i never would. then came last week, it was brought up in conversation again. only, this time, i created an account during our exchange in real time and started drafting up posts same day, publishing in a stream of posting i have yet to replicate.
do i want to replicate that?
short answer:
no.
long answer:
i was going off the buzz of finding a platform i've been yearning for, one that can let me micro- or macroblog as i please. a space to store creative writing and ramblings, as organized as i'd like them to be. something with the least amount ads (or none, in this case!). nothing--beyond built-in, minimal analytics and the subtle upvote ticker on posts--that'll make me feel antsy about engagement. you know, a "likes" and "views" type of footer on all posts that insist on letting you know that your posts are and can be seen by others.
i never liked that about social media, how it evolved to favor visibility statistics à la snapchat and eventually tiktok. the advent of content creation encouraged the thought that your post, as soon as you publish, could become viral. so best make it count, right? well, no, i don't want to do all that. i don't want to post because someone else could see it and this "brand" i created could be monetized in a way that'll take the fun out of this. there's nothing wrong with blogging as a job, though. i personally would rather not make a hobby into "work," or at least entertain that possibility.
i look at the string of published posts on the 18th with amusement. i was so excited! but i'm not shaming myself for having the pace i do now. i can draft but not necessarily publish just yet. i also very much have to eat, go to work, and touch grass with/out others. this momentum is fine, and mine.